I had a dream last night that I got somehow teleported back to China with only what was in my wallet. It was like a sci-fi sort of Shanghai... there were crazy sky walks and things I had never seen before. I somehow managed to get (I know...) a train back to the U.S., and it was an inter dimensional train.
Captain Jack Harkness was on board, and he kept trying to take care of me, since I seemed to have trouble standing up. When we got back to the States, I got a job offer in a green house that was inside a pedestrian bridge! It was so cool- the bridge was enclosed in plastic and it as filled with wonderful green plants of all kinds. There were banana and apricot trees, tomatoes, succulents... it was crazy. A nice ambient dub music played throughout the tunnel, and there were strings of diffferent colored
LEDs illuminating random areas. The other guy that worked there was a friendly, chubby gay dude. We drank iced tea and tended the plants, and I loved my job.
Then, I woke up and was cleaning my desk off- it fills with all kinds of detritus: little pieces of paper with notes or references, receipts, business cards.... also, I found a straw; the kind that bends near the top. For some reason, that set off a memory I have about my mother.... I think she was pregnant with Anna, and she had to have a
C-section. We went and visited her and she looked really weak and pale. I was sad to see her that way; i just wanted her to come home. I think I cried. Then, to make me feel better, she gave me her straw "as a souvenir". It made me feel better, but also made me even more sad. When we got home, I sat at our piano with the straw, and I was so scared that she was going to die- I got angry and tried to crush it. It was like I wanted to have revenge on her for being in the hospital by destroying the thing she gave me. I just sat at the piano with that crushed straw and cried. That is a very vivid memory for me- I remember the feelings of that night, and all it takes to bring it back up is a fucking straw.
標籤: Anna, Doctress Julia, dreams, family, memories, Mom, sad